(Another break from routine) In August 2022, I decided to stop lying to myself. It was time to stop drinking. But I didn't expect my brain to feel this way.
Thanks for this. I relate to a lot of it and have experienced a significant inclination toward sober living. Each day, more and more signs point me closer to an alcohol-free life. I don't even enjoy drinking anymore because of the cognitive dissonance it brings. I also suffer with the ADHD brain you mentioned in your story and it is so suffocating when met with alcohol. Today, I sat at my hair appointment for three, brutal hours. I was hungover and in a self-induced daze; unable to think straight or engage in conversation. I felt like such a fuck up and poser-- like how can i act like such a spiritual, enlightened, and passionate individual when I am constantly destroying my body with alcohol? staying up all night just to be the "fun" dancer, party-goer, care-free conversationalist. Thats not me... During this hair appointment, I realized I never wanted to put myself thru another experience like that. I never want to show up to my day of self-care and pampering in a morning-after funk, incapable of experiencing pleasure or engaging in the moment. It's not worth it! Cheers to being sober. My journey is just beginning.
Thanks for this. I relate to a lot of it and have experienced a significant inclination toward sober living. Each day, more and more signs point me closer to an alcohol-free life. I don't even enjoy drinking anymore because of the cognitive dissonance it brings. I also suffer with the ADHD brain you mentioned in your story and it is so suffocating when met with alcohol. Today, I sat at my hair appointment for three, brutal hours. I was hungover and in a self-induced daze; unable to think straight or engage in conversation. I felt like such a fuck up and poser-- like how can i act like such a spiritual, enlightened, and passionate individual when I am constantly destroying my body with alcohol? staying up all night just to be the "fun" dancer, party-goer, care-free conversationalist. Thats not me... During this hair appointment, I realized I never wanted to put myself thru another experience like that. I never want to show up to my day of self-care and pampering in a morning-after funk, incapable of experiencing pleasure or engaging in the moment. It's not worth it! Cheers to being sober. My journey is just beginning.